I had been in a creative withdrawal without posting a new blog or completing a collage for a couple months. FYI, I AM back and I’ll let you know what I have been up while MIA. I have been busy keeping my foundation of Spirituality/Family sturdy and strong so I can make more lasting progress and change in all the other areas of my life.
To sum up I have been healing and cleaning, literally, figuratively, and metaphorically.
About a year and half ago I ended my massage business to pursue my spiritual calling and dedicate time to supporting my child through a painful period. It has meant a lot of sacrifices, which in some ways have been a welcome simplifying of my life, and in other ways a challenging letting go of cherished activities and resources. It has been especially hard for my child who has been learning to accept that we can not afford much more than necessities. In the fall I had been contemplating looking for part time work cleaning and organizing and a couple months later several opportunities from friends and family arrived, which not only helped tremendously with finances but also allowed for flexibility. Plus I got to utilize my Virgo skills of making order out of chaos!
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The portrait pic closer to the middle is me at 5
Adding time away cleaning other people’s houses in addition to homeschooling my son and of course taking care my own home and feeding my family meant my days were filling up!! The extra time I had was devoted to my own healing, including daily maintenance for sciatica and plantar fasciitis, an intense physical cleansing, and a combination of spiritual practices. One of those practices was called, “Womb Wisdom” from the healing work of Anaiya Sohia, which really helped me through the end of year holidays and reconnected me to my source and prepared me for a more painful purging of emotional baggage that has been holding my spirit back. Since the New Year I have been addressing that pain using information about Anaiya’s process called “Wounds of Love” and my own intuitive healing guidance. Focusing on my healing taking this approach seemed the perfect fit for where I wanted my spiritual development to go and for the mediating writing I’ve spent months preparing for and that I’ll begin to share next week. The objective is to heal and transform the 5 Wounds of Love, Betrayal, Denial, Judgment, Separation, and Abandonment into the 5 qualities of Love, Agape, Eros, Philia, Storge, and Rapture. Betrayal is transformed with Trust, Denial with Truth, Judgment with Forgiveness/Acceptance, Separation with Humility, and Abandonment with Faith.
This blog is the do-ing-ness side of my spiritual life and is born out of the be-ing-ness of love. What I am planning to do, empathize with both sides of controversial and conflictual issues, requires a super strong compassionate heart. My motivation comes from the feelings of despair and frustration that I feel when I witness human separation stemming from our judgments and obsession with right/wrong thinking ,which is quite rampant online. At times I had to take breaks from social media because of the discomfort I felt when I realized that if I was honest with some friends about my views/beliefs/concerns they may not want to be my friend anymore and may even write my off as a “stupid idiot.” How can we possibly expect countries to work out their issues if we the people can’t even speak respectfully with one another, even to people we consider friends who we must share some sense of shared reality? You’d hope our common ground would garner some respect when an area of differing opinions is uncovered. The virtual world is allowing us a place to express our shadow sides without the same repercussions we’d face if we were actually face to face with the people we judge, belittle, and even demonize with our wicked wits. I am so sick of it, just as much as I am sick of my own righteous thoughts that may never make it in a comment field, but are still held in my consciousness decreasing peace.
Before I begin my massive mediating peace promoting blogging, I thought I’d first share more about the mediation approach I’ll be using, Nonviolent Communication, also called Compassionate Communication with several more posts this week. And I’ll also be working out my heart like a shaman fueled on shakti!
My hope is to eventually arrive at a peace Thomas Merton describes like this, “[A peace} that has seen through every question without trying to discredit anyone or anything, without refutation, without establishing some other argument”
I may die trying, but I CAN’T STOP my desire for Peace!
Hope you stay tuned 🙂
For more information about the healing techniques I referred to, please visit http://anaiyasophia.com/